Ela’s Blog

Ce faci cand esti nemultumit de tine, cu tine si tot ce este pentru tine? Ce faci cand existenta ta se invarte in jurul lucrurilor pe care le detesti cel mai mult? Ce faci cand nu mai poti sa ignori prostia si trufia care graviteaza in jurul tau? Ce faci cand stii ca poti fi cel mai bun dar trebuie sa pleci capul pentru ca nu ai loc de cei care au pe mamica si pe taticu in spate? Ce faci cand tot ce ai incercat sa construiesti se murdareste in mainile celor ce iti fura meritele? Ce faci cand rabdarea ta pleaca si ramai cu regretul si impulsivitatea? Ce faci cand corpul tau cedeaza in fata presiuni si vrea un repaos total? Sa te prefaci ca va fi bine? Sa o iei de la capat? Sa te multumesti cu faptul ca ai incercat si nu a mers? Sa zici “Asta e!” si sa iti vezi de drum?…intrebari ce au mii de raspunsuri diferite dar niciunul potrivit pentru tine…ai facut ceva pe ziua de azi care sa te faca mandru de tine?…nu vei raspunde niciodata sincer si vei incerca sa cauti in cele mai mici detalii ale zilei ca sa te poti salva in fata intrebari…sau poate ca ai facut si te vei fali in fata tuturor cu ce ai realizat…intrebari…ne ascundem in spatele lor si a raspunsurilor ce ne multumesc pe moment…
What do you do when you are displeased with your self, of yourself and everything that is for you? What do you do when your existence revolves round the things you hate the most? What d you do when you can not ignore anymore the stupidity and haughtiness that gravitates around you? What do you do when you know that you can be the best but you have to wait in the line because you have no room because the ones that mommy and daddy carry in their back? What do you do when all that you have tried to build is getting dirty in the hands of those that steal your merits? What do you do when your patience leaves and you remain with regret and impulsivity? What do you do when your body collapses before the pressure and wants a total rest? Pretend it will be alright? You will start over? You will comfort yourself with the fact that you tried and it didn’t work out? You will say: “That is it!” and will go on like nothing happened?…questions that have thousands of answers but none of them suited for you…did you do something today that made you proud of yourself? You will never answer honestly to this question and you will try to look in the smallest details of the day to find something that can save you from this question…or maybe you did do something and you will tell everyone what you have accomplished…questions…we hide behind them and the answers that please us for the moment